Dealing with the old hag

Still no sign of the hag! I have until 4 p.m. tomorrow or I have to wait till August! My cycles are normally 27-28 days....so why this month does my body want to do its own thing? For those of you who are lost. Prior to taking my trip I was on BCPs for 6 weeks 5 days planned it all right to stop my pills and have a complete cycle in between so I can go into IVF#4 with no suppression doing a MicroFlare Protocol. However the clinic closes for cleaning and vacation for their staff in July and the cutoff date to get in before the closing is this Friday.....and if AF doesn't start by Friday at 4 I have to wait till August and that sucks beyond suckiness!

Update:

Well I did some toilet exercises and I'm finally seeing some red (tmi....when I wipe). So thats promising....lets me know that my lining is starting to break down and hopefully I'll have some flow in the morning and I'll place the call to my RE. If you're wondering what toilet exercises are....during my hopeful like 1st year of trying when I would think that I'm pregnant and didn't want AF to show and she was due I did not want to do #2 because it always seemed to bring on AF. So all day today I've been eating things that I knew would make me go and even when I didn't have to go I would try to go anyways....and sure enough after a few of those exercises I'm seeing a little red! Plus my nurse told me even if I see a drop to call and I've seen a few so I'm a little relieved that I can now call....now I just pray that my E2 is below 70 so I can start this long overdue cycle.

Check out my Slide Show from Jamaica!

New Poem

To the right --> Check it out. Describes exactly how I feel. Still waiting and waiting and waiting. Trying to remain patient, but that gets more difficult as each TTC anniversary pass me by.

Slowly but surely.....

So time is slowly but surely passing by. Even though times seems to be flying by in other areas of my life, my trip to Jamaica and IVF#4 are taking so long to arrive. I feel very positive about this cycle coming up and I just hope and pray that it stay that way. I feel very confident that I will get a good response, and that I will have 3 great looking blasts to transfer on my fifth day. The last cycle I was very mellow, not excited and took all the punches and blows like I was expecting it. Hopefully my TTC break, my trip to Jamaica will all help me keep this positive attitude that I have going.

So when I get down and out, I'm counting on you ladies to remind me of my words. When the devil tries to bring doubt in my mind I quote this to myself, this cycle will work, I'm going to have a great response and will have 3 great looking blasts to transfer. I guess I'll move to the next positive quotes like what will stick after I get past these current hurdles.

So far so good........

Sorry for the long moment of silence. I got an email from one of my fellow bloggeress saying update update reminding me that I need to start posting on my blog again since I'm coming out of my TTC break. Well as I said before I was expecting AF to show May 21st well she showed May 22nd, so we're still looking good to make it before the closing of the RE office in July. The cut off date to start a cycle is June 20th and AF should be here around June 17th or 18th.

Got the results back from the blood test thing and all is clear. She said one test showed that it was off just a little but not one that they were concerned about or one that required medication.

My protocol is the Flare protocol, no suppression at all. Day 1 of my cycle I start Lupron, and the next morning I start 225 of Follistim and then go in for my baseline and continue on with 225 Follistim in the PM. So 225 in the morning and 225 at night.

Still counting down till our 7 lovely nights in Jamaica. June 7th is my 26th birthday and the morning of the 8th we fly out to Jamaica....I'm so excited! I really really really need this vacation.

I have to catch up on all my blogger buddies, because I haven't been reading. So much to catch up on!

Update

Update on me: Talked to DH last night and we're not going to wait till August anymore. He still wanted to but I told him I was ready to do this again. So I figured out some dates and I've got a call in with my nurse to run it by her to make sure its all okay. But I figured that I will take my last BCP on Sunday, May 18th, AF will start May 21st then AF will start again June 16 or 17th after we get back from Jamaica and I'll start my stims on June 17th or 18th with an ER around June 29th and ET around July 4th.

I talked to my nurse and everything is good to go. The only thing I was worried about is that they close the office for about 3 weeks in July for a good cleaning and to allow their staff to go on holiday. But the last date to start is June 20th and AF if she cooperates should be here June 16 or 17th. So that will work out. She'll give me my protocol when I go on Thursday for my bloodwork. The blood work on Thursday is for the test to see if I my body attacks the babies trying to implant. So next month we're back in it. Now if we can get past the $12,000 we have to pay. :roll:

Failed IVF Consult was yesterday

The new plan is cycle in August like we said and the doctor recommended a fresh cycle. Instead of the BCP/Ganirelix protocol I will do NO BCPs and do a Lupron Flare protocol normally used for older women but my body acts old so thats what we're using. I think I start stims on CD 2 of my August cycle and go right into the Lupron and the stimming. I will be on BCPs for April/May/June not for the cycle but to keep my Endo quiet. Endo feeds off the monthly menstrual cycles as the blood that is supposed to come out some how splashes back in the uterus and attaches and grows....its hard to explain you'll have to google and read to get your own understanding of Endometriosis....but anyway to avoid that she is keeping me on pills for 3 months and I start them with this period starting in a few days...no blank pills....so I won't have a period at all those 3 months. (Great for me....no period during my 7 night stay in lovely Jamaica!!!! Just my luck thats when the old hag would have probably decided to show.) Then July I will have a period and no BCPs because she don't want to oversuppress me again then with the August period I'll start stims. Let me see...what else....Oh yeah ICSI will be done on ALL the eggs this time. They said DH's count that day was like 86 million and they thought they would still be able to fertilize the eggs but to avoid that next time all will be ICSI'd. Oh yeah even though my insurance has ran out they said they give a 25% discount to Aetna members so for monitoring, ER, ET, and ICSI it will be $8,750 instead of $11,925 (of course not including the meds which will be anywhere from $2-4 thousand more). And $1500 for freeze and storage. I think thats about it. Oh no...missed something. She also wants me to get a Thrombophilea testing done but in basic terms thats a clotting test. She wants to make sure nothing is preventing the embryos from implanting and staying implanted. I have to fast for that so I'll get that done within the next couple of months or sooner so I don't forget.....