Infertile. Who, me?: 1 Month Old

Happy 1 Month Birthday Baby Girl!

Being a mommy is going great. I read everyday, so I'm still around. Miracle is a month old today....can't believe how quick the time is flying. Breastfeeding was a struggle, my nipples, were sore, cracked, and bleeding so for the past week I've been pumping and giving her breast milk and I think I may like the pumping thing better, although it is a lot to do. But still seems to be quicker than breastfeeding, since Miracle eats like there is no tomorrow and would eat for an hour to an hour an a half at the breast, every 2 hours. So I can feed and pump in like 45 minutes....but I'll see. She is getting so big, growing so quick....too quick! She has some power legs that she is constantly pushing off on you, trying to stand up, trying to push herself away, trying to hold her head up and look around. Just too fast!! We have her 4 week appt tomorrow, and I go for my 6 week appt the first week in Feb. I'm ready to start working out. Although the weight fell off completely all by itself, I do want to firm up my belly and see if I can get a 4 pack or 6 pack or something....LOL!

I'll have to take some pics today of my one month old baby girl and update later. She is knocked out right now!

My TTC History

December 24, 2009 - Our Miracle is born!
IVF #5 - March 2009 - Am I seriously doing this again....
Dec 2008 Starting 2 months of Depot Lupron
IVF #4 - July 2008 - BFP - Chemical @ 5w6d
Started my Self-Researched Vitamin Regimen May 12, 2008
IVF #3 - Feburary 2008 - BFP - Chemical
IVF #3 - January 2008 - On hold due to cysts - now into Feb.
IVF #2 - November 2007 - Poor response converted to double IUI - BFN
2nd Laparoscopy Surgery - October 2007 - Removed 9 Cysts and Stage IV Endo
Changed to new RE - want to shoot my last one in the foot! - Sept 2007
FET #1 - August 2007 - BFN - Transferred 2 Blast - 2 still frozen
IVF #1 - July 2007 - BFN - 16 retreived, 10 mature, 9 fertilized with ICSI - 5DT - 2 Blasts, 4 - Blast on ice
Laparoscopy Surgery - March 2005 - Stage IV Endo found
Officially started Trying - June 2003

Wait by Russell Kelfer

Desperately, helplessly, longingly, I cried;
Quietly, patiently, lovingly, God replied.
I pled and I wept for a clue to my fate . . .
And the Master so gently said, "Wait."
"Wait? you say wait?" my indignant reply.
"Lord, I need answers, I need to know why!
Is your hand shortened? Or have you not heard?
By faith I have asked, and I'm claiming your Word."
"My future and all to which I relate
Hangs in the balance, and you tell me to wait?
I'm needing a 'yes', a go-ahead sign,
Or even a 'no' to which I can resign."
"You promised, dear Lord, that if we believe,
We need but to ask, and we shall receive.
And Lord I've been asking, and this is my cry:
I'm weary of asking! I need a reply."
Then quietly, softly, I learned of my fate,
As my Master replied again, "Wait."
So I slumped in my chair, defeated and taut,
And grumbled to God, "So, I'm waiting for what?"
He seemed then to kneel, and His eyes met with mine . . .
and He tenderly said, "I could give you a sign.
I could shake the heavens and darken the sun.
I could raise the dead and cause mountains to run."
"I could give all you seek and pleased you would be.
You'd have what you want, but you wouldn't know Me.
You'd not know the depth of my love for each saint.
You'd not know the power that I give to the faint."
"You'd not learn to see through clouds of despair;
You'd not learn to trust just by knowing I'm there.
You'd not know the joy of resting in Me
When darkness and silence are all you can see."
"You'd never experience the fullness of love
When the peace of My spirit descends like a dove.
You would know that I give, and I save, for a start,
But you'd not know the depth of the beat of My heart."
"The glow of my comfort late into the night,
The faith that I give when you walk without sight.
The depth that's beyond getting just what you ask
From an infinite God who makes what you have last."
"You'd never know, should your pain quickly flee,
What it means that My grace is sufficient for thee.
Yes, your dearest dreams overnight would come true,
But, oh, the loss, if you missed what I'm doing in you."
"So, be silent, my child, and in time you will see
That the greatest of gifts is to truly know me.
And though often My answers seem terribly late,
My most precious answer of all is still . . . Wait."

10 comments:

Flower said...: She is beautiful....and she is growing so fast...; January 24, 2010 at 5:13 PM
Christina said...: She's so cute!! And huge! :)

If you want that post natal workout, let me know. I can ship it out next week.; January 24, 2010 at 7:14 PM
Alicia said...: Awww she is so big and pretty! My goodness she grew fast! Im glad all is well with you and you are doing just fine. So happy for you mommy! Hugs!s; January 24, 2010 at 10:15 PM
Michele said...: Oh honey, she is BEAUTIFUL!!! I wish we lived closer so the munchkins could play together!; January 25, 2010 at 12:37 PM
Alicia_B said...: Time does fly by! She is so adorable and getting so big!; January 25, 2010 at 7:46 PM
Jennifer said...: She is so cute! And getting so big, still so happy for you and your husband.; January 26, 2010 at 6:20 PM
Rose's Daughter said...: Too CUTE!!!; January 27, 2010 at 8:10 PM
writings of an infertile wannabe stepford wife said...: i am so happy for you, she is beautiful, hopefully one day my husband and i will be lucky as well. have a good day; January 29, 2010 at 12:36 PM
Hua said...: Happy 1 Month! I'm happy to hear that everything is going well. The picture updates were too cute.

Best,
Hua
Director of Blogger Networks
wellsphere.com; February 1, 2010 at 5:41 PM
Tsofah said...: What a sweetie!; February 5, 2010 at 1:28 PM

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