Update

I want to thank you all for your kind words and support.

I am back from my trip and was so glad to come back home.

I surprised myself at how well I handled the chemical, I didn't even cry about it and after everything I've been through with TTC, breaking down crying has always been my way to voice my frustrations.

Its actually kind of scary the way I handled it, I thought that it would really hit home and effect me, but I guess because the numbers started so low that I never really allowed myself to accept that I was pregnant. I guess the good thing now is that I know I can get pregnant which has never happened our past five years of trying.

Well DH and I decided that we've had enough with TTC for a while and we're just going to enjoy life and live it to its fullest then pick the TTC thing back up in a few years.

My birthday is June 7th and I'll be 26 and our 5 year wedding anniversary is June 14th and we spent our honeymoon in Negril, Jamaica. This year for our anniversary we will be in Montego Bay, Jamaica from June 8th - 15th! It will be a great break for us and I'm so looking forward to it. Next June I'm looking into planning a trip to Paris, then June 2010 a trip to Africa. So I plan to keep us occupied!

Sorry I just left everyone hanging....I just didn't have anything to write.....wasn't sure what I was feeling....I'm sure you all can relate!

Its a Chemical

I went in for blood at 7am. Nurse called at 8:30am to tell me it only went to 44, to stop my progestrone and that my period should be here in a couple days. I have to go back in on the 17th to make sure the number went down to zero.

And the thing that sucks the most is that I'm on my Washington and I won't see my hubby again till March 14th and I broke the news to him over the phone.

I wish that I could just go home and lay in his arms.

Thanks for all the support you ladies have given me. It has been much appreciated it.

14DP3DT - 17DPO - Beta 33.5

14DPO - 9.5
17DPO - 33.5

Doubling time 37.34

I was at least wanting to see 28.5 which would mean it tripled in 72 hours and it was a little higher than that, so I'm content for now because it did double.

But..........

The low number is still really bothering me. I know so many women say that its not the actual number but that it doubles every 48 hours, but just comparing myself to so many other women, this is just a low low low number.

I go back on Wednesday for another beta. They wanted to wait till Friday but I will be out of town on Friday and I leave on Wednesday afternoon so they are bringing me in then.

I hardly ever have to travel for my job and at a time like this I'm leaving for a week and a half! It sucks! But what can I do? I found a Quest center in D.C. where I'm going to be so if they want me to still get my blood drawn I can go there and they can send the results to them. But my nurse said it takes them 3 days to get the results from them. So I'm not sure what they will do.

13DP3DT - Tomorrow is the day!

Thank you ladies for all your kind words and support.

Sorry about being MIA. Yesterday was my nephews 3rd Birthday so I got up at 6am and drove to Carolina to spend the day with him. We took him to the zoo and the Chuckie Cheese's! I was pooped. Then I got up at 5:30 to head back to Georgia this morning. But I did test when I got home today and I'll paste those for those who were asking about pics:

And here are all three different brands together:

So I shall know something more tomorrow.......

Update: Just got this.......