Confirmed....

Thanks Ladies. But as expected its over. My beta was 31 today. I'm going to be very distant from here for a while as we figure out what we're going to do, but will probably still read quietly to check up on everyone. I'm not sure what our next step is, but maybe we'll do the IVF Vacation in Europe.....or maybe we'll....I don't know. But anyway, thanks for the support.

It Dropped....

220.9

They want me to stay on the meds and come back on Monday. Reason being they have another patient on the same DPO as me and her numbers are 146 today....so they want to see what happens with mine. They said we did put 4 in and they are hoping that maybe one will stay put because my numbers did start out so high.

But I know the truth....and they are just prolonging the truth from happening!

Thank You!

Thank you ladies for all your comforting words of support. I really do appreciate it.

Last night I reminded myself that before this cycle even began I put it into God's hands. So all I can do is pray about it and hope for the best. Tomorrow morning I shall know what is going on.

Beta Hell....Again

Back in beta hell again. Why can't this just be easy sometimes? Beta today was only 405. Nurse said they wanted to see it between 600 and 700 but they aren't alarmed yet. They think I had 2 try to implant and one didn't make it. This is a doubling time of 90.41 hours....no where near close to the ideal 48-72 hours.

I've been in this blah and horrible mood all day. I don't know what to think nor what to say or what to feel so I feel like I'm just going through the motions wishing for Thursday to be here already.

I checked betabase and the median for 18DPO for singleton pregnancies is 403 so I guess I am right in line with a singleton. As much as I just want one healthy baby I still can't help to be sad for the one that was trying to hang on and couldn't make it. My mouth speaks just a healthy baby but my heart longed for twins. But after all I've been through and 5 years of trying I should just take what I'm given and be happy and shut-up about it. I don't even know if I have one healthy bean in there, how can I be concerned about a twin that I never knew existed. My feelings are all jacked up and I just feel lost.

Any reassurance anyone can offer, I'm all ears.