Tuesday, November 11, 2008

Thank you.....

Thank you all very much for your well wishes and words of comfort. I know I just kind of disappeared and some of you were worried about me, so I decided to come on here and post an update. I haven't forgot about any of you and think of you often, just had to give myself time to get my head right.....ya know?

Well an update with me. I'm still feeling pretty anti-baby. I guess that was my way of dealing with my last disappointment. I've been totally okay with it being just DH and I and I'm not sure how long I will feel this way or if I will get bombarded by the intense desire to be a mom in a couple of months, couple of years or never. On Sunday I was looking at DH's benefits plan as he is in open enrollment now (we've been with my plan for the last 3 years) so I was looking at his plan to see if they had added anything new. They have. They added 4 IVF attempts and 6 IUIs. They had the IUIs before but not the IVF attempts. So we're going to switch to his insurance which starts up in January and my insurance ends in March. Now when I read that about the IVFs I can't lie, the itch to try again did come back so DH and I talked about it and he was like if we're going to do it we need to do it ASAP because we never know when the contract might change up. He is Army contractor so their contracts can change at anytime. So what I plan to do is go on Lupron for 3 months for my Endo then jump right into a cycle. So this should put me cycling in March 09 time frame. I called my nurse yesterday to tell her I wanted to go on Lupron and didn't want to get another surgery. Not sure if you remember but my doctor wanted to do another surgery after my last chemical. I don't think I need one yet because my periods are not painful like they have been in the past. But my nurse said I had to come do my failed IVF talk with the doctor first which I had been avoiding because I wasn't sure if we wanted to go any further with the IVFs, but when I got 4 free to use its kind of hard to pass that opportunity then always play that what if game in my mind if I didn't do it. So I scheduled the failed IVF consult for next Thursday. I plan to stick to my guns about no more Follistim and if my doc doens't want to put my back on the meds I was on the very first time, then I think its time to switch docs. We tried her way with the Follistim um....like 4 times so obviously my body doesn't like the Follistim and doesn't respond very well to it. So thats me and thats my update. (((hugs)))

11 comments:

Kymberli said...

I've been wondering how you're doing. It's wonderful that your dh's insurance will cover four IVFs! That's huge! Prayerfully, you'll only need the first one. I know it's been a long, hard road. I'll be waiting anxiously to hear about your visit with Dr. ML.

soapchick said...

Great to hear from you Tashida! I'm glad you are doing well with your hubby. That is pretty cool about the insurance coverage. Might as well try it! Again, so nice to get an update from you. Hugs.

Jill said...

What great news! Great luck and prayers!

Searching for Serenity said...

Hi there,

It's nice to have you back. I'm fairly new here. Started blogging just around the time you stopped. I'd been lurking since July.

It sounds like you're in a really good place right now. I'm happy to hear it. Congrats on the new benefits. What a blessing!

I look forward to continue reading your journey and am sending lots of positive vibes your way.

S4S

Ms. J said...

I am thrilled to read your update - I think about you lots!

I think it's a good sign that Adrian's insurance has this benefit, and yes, it'd tempt the heck out of me, too! You have some good logic there (and incentive), if his benefits can change at any time.

HUGS!

Tiffany said...

So glad you updated. The new insurance sounds great, I agree with you on the "what ifs" if you didn't give it another shot, but so glad to hear you are content with it just being you and DH for now. Hugs.

Yolen said...

good luck!

Claudia said...

Hey, Claudia here. You posted a comment on my blog asking about my successful cycle, where it was and which protocol. Sorry to tell you, but it wasn't here in Atlanta. It was at the Sher Institute of Reproductive Medicine in Los Angeles. They used an estrogen priming protocol, which my independent research had indicated was the only one that might possibly work on me. Along the way we did some genetic testing, and I think that was the final piece to the puzzle that allowed me to get and stay pregnant.

In Atlanta I was under the care of Dr. Andrew Toledo, kind of while he was inbetween IVF clinics. He's now with RBA. He did lots of my monitoring and my early pregnancy care, including my first pregnancy (which was ectopic). The REs in CA were the ones directing the show, though. Dr. Toledo has absolutely the best bedside manner, and was always open to my suggestions, supportive, and optimistic without being unrealistic.

Hope some of this info helps, feel free to email me if I can answer any other questions. I wish you the best on this journey, and hope the next cycle brings you the joy you long for.

Michele said...

I'm so glad for the update. You've been in my prayers. This is a rough road, and I think you are on the right track to stick to your guns. I'm glad the insurance changed and that you guys can get the coverage to try again. My throughts and prayers are with you on this journey!

Jennifer said...

Tash-
I am so glad to hear that you are ok. You and your hubby are and will remain in my prayers. I am glad that you are considering trying again. I am proud of you!!! Please keep us posted. Much Love.

Susan said...

hey, tashida! thanks for stopping by. I'm not online very much --- no time! It sounds like you are going through a time of peace. that's good to know. I'm glad to hear that the ins. will pay for four ivf's. that's awesome. I wish you the best of luck and hope that your doctor is willing to work with you. there is always an uncertainty with having to change docs. as always, still in my prayers.