8dp5dt (13DPO) HPT.....Still Negative

I'm so hurt that this cycle didn't work. I put so much into it, emotionally, physically, mentally, and spiritually. I'm just trying to come to grips with everything I was so hopeful this cycle would work. The tears come and go but when they come they linger so I had to call in to work today...just not ready to face anyone. My bestfriend and God baby are here and I've been closed up in my bedroom since yesterday.....Just trying to understand WHY. I left a message for my nurse to see if she could bump my Beta up just so I can get the tears all out my system and begin to try to move on from this. Waiting on her to call back. This disappointment is all too much to handle.