8 weeks

So I haven't done this on here....meaning talk about myself and this pregnancy in the same post. The good news is I have not saw red blood since Thursday morning. I have had some dark brown spotting but not much and I feel much better with dark brown than I do with bright red.


Bed rest is a little harder than I thought it would be. If I wasn't required to stay in one spot I probably would be lounging the whole weekend anyway....but just the knowing I'm not suppose to do nothing just makes me a little more restless.


Yesterday I hit 8 weeks. I just say wow 2 months down already and I still haven't fully accepted that this is for real. I hate that infertility steals so much from you, but hopefully I will feel enough peace to actually enjoy this pregnancy before I blink my eyes and its almost over. I've waited my whole life to be pregnant and feel the joys of pregnancy and now because of my history I'm too guarded and scared to let myself enjoy it. Hopefully soon though....that is my prayer, because I refuse to allow the devil to still my joy from this. So I just keep telling myself....my LO will stick, my LO will be born healthy and strong. I have to tell myself this many many times a day. But whatever it takes to help keep the faith....I will do.

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I wanted to wish all the Mother's a Happy Mother's Day and send all my love to those still waiting!