Tuesday, March 31, 2009

Pending Cancellation.....

Well not good news for me. Did my ultrasound, ovaries are swollen as they should be after what they've been through. Small pockets of fluid around them but not much. No fluid up around my lungs which is good. Met with my RE who I didn't even know would be at that office today. Said because of how things looks on the ultrasound and how I am feeling he would be [i]tempted[/i] to transfer 1. I was like what....one?!? I was like how we go from 3-5 to 1? He was like I don't want you to get sick and because of your levels I'm afraid to transfer two or more and you get pregnant with twins or more and then get really sick and end up in the hospital. He was like how you feel about that. I said I feel like transferring one will be a waste of time after I've already had 6 good quality Blast transferred and nothing to show for it, so how am I supposed to believe that one would do the job. He said I understand your concerns but we have to look out for your health. He said we need to think with our head and not our heart and I want you to pregnant just as much as you want to be. Then he got on the FET bandwagon again and asked how I felt about that. I told him I already told you its not something I want to jump to do because its using 2 attempts out of my four and given my history I feel like I need to hang on to all of them utilizing them wisely. He said well it all depends on how your blood work comes back. If it comes back normal or very close to normal I may consider transferring one or two at the most but I would prefer one and I know you would prefer more. He said but if it is abnormal we will freeze all and do a FET.


Ugghhh so now I sit here in limbo again just waiting on the call to see if I'm cancelled or not.

9 comments:

Ms. J said...

Oh Honey, I can't even imagine how upset and confused you are right now. I am sure it's difficult to even think clearly, but this doctor (who has finally gotten things steered in the right direction for you) obviously sounds like he knows how important it is to you, and is trying his best to balance that while doing his best to keep a mommy-to-be as healthy as possible, because any embies/babies growing inside you need a healthy vessel.

Praying for you.

Isn't it pretty to think so said...

How frustrating. But it really is a good thing that your RE is thinking about your health. Even if it doesn't feel like a good thing now. Hopefully your levels will come back ok and things will proceed the way you want them to.

Michele said...

DAMMIT. I just want to curse. This is so not fair! I am crossing my fingers and saying a prayer. Please update as soon as you hear something.

Prayer works. We will just continue praying.

RB said...

That sucks T! I'm hoping that everything works out in your favor :)

Alison said...

Praying for you! Keep us updated!

G$ said...

Ugh, how frustrating! I am hoping your levels come back ok.

Living With Loss said...

Hi there

Just found your blog and wanted to say I'm so sorry for all you've been through. Your hope and bravery is inspiring.

I wish you lots of luck on your journey for some good news very soon.

Tiffany said...

That just COMPLETELY STINKS! Seriously my RE office NEVER checked ANYTHING from ER to ET. I had mild OHSS and here I am! Stinky, very stinky. Praying for you.

Jennifer said...

T-
I am praying for you girl. Stay strong. I know you are going through right now. But keep your head up.